Arrow 1×09

I apparently missed an episode of Arrow recently, the mid-season finale episode. I know, brilliant, right? Yeah. :p

Anyway, while reading a recap of the episode on AfterElton, I noticed in the comments section that some people seemed to be confused upon hearing about Moira’s involvement in the sabotaging of The Queen’s Gambit and Oliver’s kidnapping and torture when he returned from the island.

I don’t know about anybody else, but up until now it did sound a bit like Moira Queen had more involvement in the sinking of The Queen’s Gambit than it sounded like in this episode. In this episode, it sounded more like something she had no real control over whether it happened or not. That it was Daddy Merlyn’s idea and that he was going to do it whether she liked it or not. He had a reason, but it didn’t convince her of much but she was caught between a rock and a hard place and didn’t feel she had a choice.

Now, whether that is how it happened or whether she had more involvement than that I don’t know. I’m just saying that at least in this exchange with Moira and Merlyn, it sounded like it was more Merlyn than Moira.

People also seemed confused about her involvement with having her own son purposely kidnapped and tortured to find out whether or not he knew anything about Robert Queen and his illegal activities (and subsequently the illegal activities and conspiracies of the other people on that list, including Merlyn).

At least as far as this particular conversation goes, it sounds an awful lot like it was another issue of her being caught between a rock and a hard place. Important and dangerous people, namely Merlyn, were concerned that Oliver knew more than he should and that he might be a liability. To prove that he knew absolutely nothing, Moira had her own son kidnapped and tortured about it. From the way it sounds, it seems more like she was figuring that that was better than having a dead son. Because, if Merlyn was convinced that Oliver knew more than he ought to know and was a possible liability, he would just have him killed. Whether Moira liked it or not.

Is that actually the case or is she a more sinister character than the show has thus far let on? I don’t know, but so far it sounds like she’s in over her head and not in any sort of control over what’s going on and she’s doing what she can to at least save the family members she’s got left, including the son that just came back seemingly from the dead once already, rather than watch them all die because she was caught up in something she couldn’t handle.

As more episodes are shown, we might find out I’m totally off base here and she really is a sadistic psychopath. But, so far it doesn’t look that way.

That doesn’t mean that if/when Oliver himself finds out about all of this he won’t feel just as betrayed as if she were a sadistic psychopath. I mean, can you imagine finding out that your mother was so in over her head that she let your father be killed, had you kidnapped and tortured (along with a friend of yours), and allowed your father’s best friend and her current husband to be drugged and kidnapped just to appease these crooks rather than trying to go to the police with all of the evidence she seems to have just lying around the house? Sure, that would incriminate her, but it seems like that’s less horrible than the route she actually went.

I have no idea what Ollie’s reaction will actually be when he finds out, though. But, it does seem that Moira is only really accomplishing making things worse and eventually everything will probably end up crashing down all around her head. In which case, Ollie probably will find out. I’m sure the writers will allow us to see his reaction to this big reveal because it is kind of a big deal. o.O; So, I’m looking forward to that.

Still, I like the whole mystery and intrigue thing they’ve got going and I can’t help hoping they keep letting it go on for a good long while more. Even if it means that we don’t get that “your mom’s a crook!” reveal this season.

Also, and this is just an aside, but I found the whole stay-away-from-my-little-sister routine Ollie had going this episode with Shane to be rather lackluster and unconvincing. Maybe that was just me. I don’t know. I just wasn’t feeling it from his character. It seemed more like he was pretending to be outraged when he really wasn’t just because that was the reaction he thought he was supposed to have. When I think the actor was supposed to be going for genuine big-brother-anger here.

I like Thea’s character, but I don’t see much chemistry between the two actors. I just don’t. I’m hoping she gets a better story line than she’s gotten so far soon. One that might be slightly more independent from Ollie’s character, just because her character is such a good one but Stephen Amell and Willa Holland just don’t click that well. Or at least, they haven’t so far.

Maybe that’s just my interpretation and everyone else sees actual chemistry between the actors and I’m just nuts? That’s possible, too.

And just to be clear, I’m not saying that they aren’t good actors, or that either of them suck at acting on this show. Nor am I saying that the character of Ollie should not have had the reaction to be protective of his sister when it comes to this Shane guy. I’m just saying…together, I don’t see the chemistry between them as characters, nor do I feel that the reaction to Shane was at all genuine. I think it was supposed to be and fell flat. And, ya know, that happens sometimes. It’s not the end of the world and it doesn’t mean I’m going to storm off in a fit of rage and no longer watch Arrow, or that I’m purposely trying to pick on the actors or the show.

I’m just saying, I was a little surprised is all. :p


The End of BBC’s Merlin

Okay, I won’t spoil anything for anyone. I promise. Spoiler-free zone here. In case there are people who haven’t seen the series finale, yet.

I was really, extremely bummed out when I found out that Merlin was going to end with this season. As were all of the other Merlin fans out there. I mean, we’d have all loved to see another season or two. Merlin was a wonderful show, with wonderful characters, great chemistry between all of the actors involved, etc.

And when it was abruptly announced more than halfway through this season that this would, in fact, be the final season…all of us fans were shocked. There was so much left to do, we couldn’t imagine how they could pull off answering all the important questions and tying off the loose ends in neat knots in what was left of the 5th season.

There was some talk of specials that might air, or a movie trilogy, but that quickly went south and we were told in no uncertain terms that there would be nothing of that sort happening. There would be a 2-part series finale and that would end the entire show. Not to mention that the actors themselves seemed completely on board with the end happening now and that they did not intend to reprise their roles for anything. Well, at least not the main actors…I do think there is still some talk going around about possible spin-offs, but I’m not sure.

The fans, myself included, were shocked and skeptical. We were left with our mouths hanging open, staring at each other as if someone had just smacked us with a fish.

But, the series finale, both parts, have now aired. The show is now completely finished. And, I have to confess, I was dreading it. I wanted to see the end, but at the same time I didn’t. I was worried they would ruin a great show by screwing up the finale. That they would mess it up so badly that it would actually taint the great seasons and episodes that came before. And, I’ll be honest, I also didn’t want it to be over. And some part of me thought that, maybe, if I just don’t watch the last two episodes it will never truly be over. It would never truly hit home that one of my favorite shows was finished and done with.

Come on, shut up! I didn’t have enough warning that this would be the end, the total end, to cope!

However…now that I’ve seen the last two episodes, I can say that while I’m sad that the show is over and that there isn’t much of a likelihood at all that it will ever be continued (at least not with the same actors), that the actors are unlikely to reprise their roles for any reason…I’m still satisfied with the ending.

Yes, I’m satisfied. It’s sad that the show is done with, but they did a fantastic job with the finale. They really did. It was action-packed, it was emotional, it was even humorous in areas, it was dramatic. It lived up to the series as it had been thus far, and it didn’t take anything away from the glory of the previous seasons and episodes.

It was everything I’d have wanted in a series finale. I can’t think of any very important loose ends that didn’t get tied up. Also, the Big Reveal that every fan has been waiting for since the beginning? I loved that, too. And so will you when you see it. I won’t say why or how or what or anything else. But, it’s wonderful.

I will say one more thing. That very last bit at the end? The very, very ending scene? I totally did not see that coming. But, it actually was the best way to end it, I think. That was what really made it “okay” for me.

I would say why, but that would give it away and I don’t want to spoil anyone. It’s not been very long since both episodes aired and there are probably still a lot of people who haven’t seen it. And probably a lot of people who could have but are putting it off for the same reasons I put it off a couple of days.

I can’t speak for every other fan, obviously. Just myself. But, I totally am satisfied with the end of the show. That was a wonderful, perfect ending. I’m sad it had to end, but since it did I’m glad this is how it went.

Calming Down Over Supernatural

Okay, I’ve been thinking about my obsessive fangirl flailing while Supernatural has been on break. I think maybe…just maybe…I’m stressing over nothing. I know, shocker, right? 😉

Most of my anxiety is over the fact that we’re about halfway through at this point (I’m not sure exactly how many episodes are planned but they usually run in the 20s) and the brothers Winchester still don’t seem to be getting any closer to getting their old spark back. Anyone reading this who is familiar with Supernatural’s past seasons at all will likely understand what I mean without elaboration.

But, as I think more and more about it I’m reminded of some articles I read back in the summer before season 8 even started. Back when it was just announced that season 8 was picked up. The Big Boss seems to be a Big Fan of Supernatural. So, that’s a plus. And he did say that he was totally in favor of actually going all the way to season 10 or even beyond that.

And the lead actors have said, I’m pretty sure (if I’m remembering right), that they’d totally be on board for seasons 9 and 10 to finish out the series. I think I read somewhere in a July article that Jensen Ackles seemed especially on board with the suggested idea that they go to season 10 to finish out the series completely.

I’d love for the show to go beyond season 10, but to be quite honest I’d be more than happen if it went there and ended. I think there’s a lot left to do with the series, a lot of questions left to answer from previous seasons that haven’t gotten answered yet (like Ash mentioning that John, Ellen, and Jo are not in Heaven…so where are they? Just for one…) that I’d really like to see an answer to. And I think if they extend the series at least to season 10 and then finish it out there it would give ample time to answer all of those questions AND give the show a big finale worthy of the greatness that Supernatural has achieved.

I’d be totally happy with that. I’d be sad with the ending of a great show, but I’d be satisfied, you know?

So…in order to maintain my own sanity, I’m going to stop speculating about whether season 8 is meant to be the last season and all this speculation of going to season 10 to finish out the series might just be a bluff or a bait for the fans to keep watching.

Hopefully, this will allow me to better enjoy the current season of Supernatural when it comes back from break. Everything tends to be a lot more enjoyable, anyway, when you don’t have a cloud of anxiety hanging over your head, raining all over your parade, right?


Sadness over Supernatural

I’ve just realized that while I look forward to Supernatural every week, I also dread it the day I watch it. I feel tense and worried that the whole thing will end with the boys being just as estranged from each other emotionally as they were during their reunion in episode 1 of this season. I don’t really remember it being this bad between them before, although when Sam was high on demon blood and still listening to Ruby during season 5 comes about as close as I can remember. Even when Sam was lacking a soul it wasn’t quite this bad between them.

It would really be a shame if the series ended with this season and they either never totally fixed this gigantic rift between them or they sort of just forgive each other at the last moment or an episode or two before the end. It just would ruin the entire series if they did it like that. A big reason that people tune in and a big reason that the show is so popular is the fact that nothing ever comes between them for very long and that they have a very deep and abiding love for each other.

I don’t see that this season. I really don’t. And I’m really just all tense and worried about it to the point that while I look forward to the new episode of the week every week, I sort of wonder if I should talk myself into just not watching this season anymore. Just skip the latest ep and never come back. That way, if they fuck things up and this is the end of the entire series (I haven’t heard that it is, but I’ve heard that it very well could be) then it won’t ruin the journey up to now for me. At the very least.

So far, I have avoided doing that. I have forced myself to watch and while I don’t regret it…every episode where they seem no closer to resolving their rift and in fact sometimes even seem as though they’re making that into an even more gigantic chasm, I just want to sigh, hang my head, and cry. This is a great series and I would hate for them to ruin it by just not fixing this. And soon. Long before the end of the season hits.

I enjoy a lot of shows that are on right now, but Supernatural is by far in my opinion the best one. I don’t usually find shows that I just click with so easily and so fast and a big reason for that is the brotherly love and devotion between Sam and Dean. With that more or less out of the picture, or hiding so well it can hardly be seen, it just ruins it.

I realize that a lot of major and horrible things have happened to them and that it might take time to fix it, but the problem isn’t that. For me, it’s that I don’t see any attempts by the writers to fix it or hint at it’s fixing. I see some promise every once in a while, but then something happens to show that it wasn’t what it seemed at all. It was just a ruse. And I’m left disappointed again.

And the only reason I’m so bummed about it and that I complain about it and panic-fangirl about it is because I absolutely LOVE this show and that hasn’t changed. If I didn’t like it, I wouldn’t care and I wouldn’t bother.

Teddy as Billy Fanfiction/Fanart

There has got to be fanfiction or fanart out there somewhere involving Teddy shifting to look like Billy and then touching himself while thinking about him. There just has to be. Maybe he feels bad about it afterward, even though he really liked it, or maybe it’s even at Billy’s request and said boyfriend is watching. I dunno, something. There has to be something like this out there. I will find it. And if there isn’t, I will create it. o.o

Fanfiction and Fanart

I think sometimes people take these things too seriously. And by that, I mean that sometimes I think people assume that fanfiction writers and fanartists think that all of their stuff could totally happen in the canon, when really even though what they’re writing or the art that their making isn’t AU per se it is just something they’re exploring for fun, for feels, or for some other reason. Just because it’s not meant to be AU doesn’t mean that it’s also meant to be totally and completely in character or in the realm of canon possibility.

And then I see people who assume that they know what the author or artist was thinking and what their motivations were, without asking those people, and chewing them out for it. I don’t know what’s so hard about clicking the back button (or just not clicking a link at all) if you stumble upon something you aren’t interested in reading or viewing.

Or, you know, if you must…just asking them what their motivation was when they wrote that particular fic or made that particular piece of art.

Young Avengers & Other Fangirlish Things

I’ve just discovered (a bit late, I may add) this wonderful thing in American comic books called Young Avengers. It didn’t even blip my radar until a week or so ago when I was reading After Elton‘s column The Shipping News‘ latest article. It talked briefly about the canon gay couple, Teddy and Billy (Hulkling and Wiccan). I knew that American comics were starting to embrace gay couples, both lesbian and gay male couples, but I hadn’t realized it had branched over into things like Young Avengers.


Young Avengers

I haven’t read American comics in so long that I was really out of the loop, but I was so happy to see a young, committed couple was being portrayed here that I decided I’d find the comics myself and read them, to see what’s going on. To see if the rumors were accurate, or if people had seized upon something sub par and made it more awesome in fandom than it ever was in canon.


Billy (brunette) & Teddy (blond)

Well, let me just say that I was and am very impressed. o.O; I’m not finished with it all, yet, but I have gotten through the 12 issues of Young Avengers, plus the Young Avengers Special, I’ve gone through Young Avengers Presents and the 3 issue Civil War crossover between Young Avengers, Avengers, and Runaways and while there have been more than a few heterosexual lip-locks in the comics I haven’t noticed Teddy and Billy getting any of that action. I do know that there’s supposed to be at least one kiss, apparently which the fans were waiting for since forever because anything having to do with it includes the words “finally kiss!”

That’s my only real beef with the comics. Characters of opposite sex have kissed even before they were in an actual relationship, yet. However, here we have Billy and Teddy who are in a committed, serious, loving relationship and not a single lip-lock to be had between them. I find it a little strange. I don’t think they necessarily have to be throwing themselves at each other, and taking moments out of intense battles to kiss and have a grope fest or anything weird like that. But, there have been opportunities where they could have kissed and didn’t. Where heterosexual couples WOULD have kissed, but these two didn’t.

I’m not really sure what the hold-up is. Maybe this has been posed to the guys behind the comic and already answered, but I’m unaware of it. So, I’m still in the dark about the point behind waiting so long.

There have been a lot of scenes that are just adorable or very sweet, though. Don’t get me wrong. And I’m only ripping on this little peeve I’ve got because I love the comics and the characters (and the pairing!) so much. I’m not doing it just to say it’s horrible (because it’s not!).

I love the way that Teddy and Billy are there for each other when it counts. I love that they comfort each other when it’s needed, and the way that they do. Billy tells Teddy about it when he has nightmares, Teddy does what he can to make sure that Billy is okay or gets to where he can be okay. Even if that means staying behind and impersonating Billy (did I mention Teddy’s a shape-shifter?) so that his parents don’t know he’s gone while Billy goes off with his brother to try to find their “real” mother (long story, read the books~). Teddy wanted to go with him, to be there for him physically and to be his back-up should it be needed. But, he also understood how much Billy needed to do this as a brother thing with Tommy, and that he also really needed Teddy to be there covering for him with his parents.

Also, Teddy is the sweetest sweetheart ever to sweet!

I like how Billy comforts Teddy when he finds out the truth about his birth, his lineage, the horrific way he found out, and the aftermath of it all.

I also love the way that Teddy is protective of Billy in the Civil War comics. I squealed, truly!

These two are definitely serious about their relationship and I love that. I love that they love each other so much. I just kind of would like to see a little more physical expression of that beyond hand-holding (not that it isn’t sweet and d’awww worthy!). I’m heartened, however, by the knowledge that these things are coming! …No pun intended, guys, seriously.

Also, I just want to say I also really love Tommy. I wasn’t sure how I’d feel about him when he was introduced, but he’s grown on me. I guess it’s a speedster thing. So far, whether it’s Marvel or DC I haven’t found a speedster I hated. I even liked Quicksilver when he was being a little bitch and irritating me in the X-Men: Evolution television series! Just because I wanted to smack him doesn’t mean I didn’t love him!



On an entirely different note, I’ve discovered a book series that I’m totally gaga over. I also found out about in an article on The Shipping News. The Mortal Instruments by Cassandra Clare is a book series that I have a lot of difficulty explaining to people who ask me what the heck I keep raving about. Those that actually care about what I read, that is. Mostly people just roll their eyes and say, “oh there goes Vamps again…”


I initially started reading it because there’s also a popular gay couple in this book series, as well. I think maybe they break up, since there was mention in the article that made me think so. However, I don’t know for certain as I haven’t gotten that far, yet. But, that doesn’t mean it’s not an awesome pairing anyway and that’s what fix-it fanfiction is for! :p

Malec (Magnus & Alec) – fanart

(I don’t know who created this wonderful, beautiful piece of art, however if the artist sees it and wants me to remove it I will!)

However, I’m still just reading the first book (City of Bones) and am about halfway through it. I’ve just gotten to the part where they introduce the other half of the Malec ship (other fangirls and fanboys will know what I mean by that choice of phrasing), so there’s still no relationship between them yet. But, even without that the book is really awesome and I’m totally hooked on it. It’s written with a great flow, nothing goes too slowly. The characters are interesting and fun to read about, and the hidden world that Clare has created here for this series is just awesome.

Anyone thinking they want to read it, however, should be aware that this is a YA (Young Adult) series. While many people don’t mind, or even love YA books, many don’t because of the lack of specific adult themes and the fact that most of the time the books involved are about fairy tales or children/teenagers. I love bodice rippers and gay smut, but I also love YA fiction and that’s just how I roll. If you don’t, that’s great, too! Everybody has their own thing, right? But, I definitely recommend this series at least for a look.


Divergent is also a YA book (one out of an unfinished trilogy) that has grown on me. It’s been likened to The Hunger Games but I don’t know if that’s at all accurate as I haven’t read that trilogy (I know, I’m awful, right??). From what I’ve learned about The Hunger Games through fans of the books, though, I can definitely see why that trilogy and this one would be likened together. No gay couples so far (I’m still waiting to be able to check out the second book from the library, Insurgent. Someone else has it!) and I really don’t expect their to be. Which is sad, unsurprising. It’s still a good book, though. It follows Beatrice (or Tris as she is later called in the book) and her quest to become her own person and create her own destiny while being true to herself. Along the way there is a love interest for her, betrayals, murders, and a plot to overthrow the current government that she gets wrapped up in by accident and circumstance.